So I chickened out of going to see my CPN today. I was awake really late with it going through my head, round and round. So late last night I decided that I wasn't going to go. Then I managed to get to sleep.
I know I need to see her regarding what's going off. It's really bothering me and I need some medication or something to make it stop. I'm so scared of ending up in hospital again. It makes me not want to go see anyone.
So I suppose I can continue being a hermit in my flat until my next expected trip out which isn't for a few days.