Uni said no, I can't go back this year and I have to defer for another year. I expected it. But I am still really upset about it and feel awful.
There is quite a bit to write but I don't have the energy to at the moment. I am doing my usual of avoiding thinking about it. Every time I do I end up in tears.
Basically they said what happened in April wasn't long enough ago; I haven't been stable for long enough. And that they weren't going to be part of my recovery.
I feel really let down by my Uni and the lack of support.
I will write more once I get my head around things.