I can't stand being locked up anymore. It Makes the self harming urges even stronger and gives me more time to formulate plans.
I asked to speak to my doctor but apparently the mental health act assessment yesterday counts as her seeing me this week. I'm really unhappy. All I wanted to talk to her about was s17 leave even if it is escorted. I'm going more mad on the ward.
I'm feeling so miserable at the moment and all I want to do is self harm. I need to relieve some of this tension and frustration. I do have some methods but not what I really want.