I have realised tonight how great she is and just how much I am going to miss her. I have been holding back the tears all night, even when people around me were getting teary. But not me. But I have got home and I can not stop crying. She means so much to me. She has been there through thick and thin. She may not have said what I have always wanted her to say, but she has been right. She is one of those people who I can actually let go with and let myself be me around.
Before I got ill, I was a very outgoing person. Said what I felt, did what I wanted and acted how I wanted. Well I say that. I wasn't, but I wanted to. Around her I could. I have said that to her before. That around her I could be who I wanted to be and I knew that she wouldn't care as she was one of my closest friends and I didn't need to reserve myself. I could be that outgoing, loud, noisy, I could be me. That me who I am not even a shadow of any more.
I am really going to miss her. I hate to say it but I wish she wasn't going.
About Me
- Kat Moss
- Well, what can I say without giving too much away about who I am. I suppose firstly I should say why I am writing a blog. It's for my own benefit really. I like looking back through old things I have written about and it makes me rememeber it. I have an awful memory and it's good to look back and see how I felt about something or even something happening. I used to keep a diary when I was younger but fear of it being found and also the amount of time it took me to write in it meant that I didn't really write in it that often. But, it was good to look back on things and see how things were at the time. I don't know how many people, if any will read this. I would like to think people would read it and I can remain totally anonymous. If I can't be honest on here then where can I be. No one knows me on here, no one knows I keep a blog so I have that security.
1 comment:
Oh bless.
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