I have been summoned by Dr T and Beth the CPN/CCO. I have to be there for 3pm. I am freaking out. I think they are going to spring a MHA assessment on me. I think they want me to go to the hospital.
I still have the same thoughts. I don't have a plan. I have thoughts, I have ideas but no plan.
I don't want to go. I don't like Dr T. He will probably turn round and tell me I am not suicidal, that I am not having suicidal thoughts and that they don't exist. He does tend to invalidate what I am feeling and tell me I am feeling something I am not or tell me I am not feeling something I feel I am feeling.
I am worried this is a rouse for a MHA assessment. I know I have already seen an AMHP. She was the social worker who saw me in the hospital. Can they do assessments separately over a number of days like that? He will be a S12 approved, he is the consultant Psych. So I would only need one more doc. Can they do them without you being aware that they are doing them?
About Me
- Kat Moss
- Well, what can I say without giving too much away about who I am. I suppose firstly I should say why I am writing a blog. It's for my own benefit really. I like looking back through old things I have written about and it makes me rememeber it. I have an awful memory and it's good to look back and see how I felt about something or even something happening. I used to keep a diary when I was younger but fear of it being found and also the amount of time it took me to write in it meant that I didn't really write in it that often. But, it was good to look back on things and see how things were at the time. I don't know how many people, if any will read this. I would like to think people would read it and I can remain totally anonymous. If I can't be honest on here then where can I be. No one knows me on here, no one knows I keep a blog so I have that security.
1 comment:
how did it go?
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